Twins

It is such a blessing and I still can't get over it.  It does explain why I am already starting to show and can barely wear my jeans anymore.  

I am excited but also scared.  

I was picturing having another baby, breastfeeding, coming home from the hospital right away....basically this pregnancy and birth being easy peasy since we had so many complications with Cassie.   Well...Twins won't be the case.   They usually require a NICU stay, most likely I would be a c-section and I could be put on bed rest.   My friend who had twins said I am in for a long 9 month ride but it will all be worth it.  I know she is right and I am going to do everything I can for these 2 babies inside of me.  What a journey God has laid before me.

I am also scared in regards to the logistics of twins. Feeding, picking them up and going places when I am by myself and then also throw in a preschooler.   This will be a challenge for sure. At least Cassie will be close to 4 by the time they come.  She knows there are 2 babies.  When we told her she said "Holy Cow" then she said "I get one baby and you get the other"  Works for me Cass...I am going to need all the help I can get.

I also want things to be normal for Cassie once the babies come.   So my plan is once I am in a routine that I will still try to do all our normal activities we do now.  Still go to our friends house for play dates (plenty of hands there to help me) still do story time and some parks.   Now big things like the zoo I will hold off for when Daddy is around.   The scary part of all this is being just me with 2 hands and 2 newborns.   I'm sure once they are here and I'm in a routine it will be fine.  Its just me sitting here thinking about everything.   

I already woke up at 2 in the morning thinking of all the things we need to buy.   I thought we were set on baby stuff but Twins means we need 2 of everything.  We need another baby shower!! Haha! 

Wow.  Again, so amazing I have two little babies inside of me.  Man...how huge am I going to get?    I am going to need to be on extreme makeover after this!  Ha!

That God has entrusted two more babies to my care...what an awesome responsibility.