The "S" word.....

Surgery #4!!! We went to see a surgeon today about her g-tube hole not closing up. Its still leaking and it is just a viscous circle. When she is really crying she is putting force on her stomach and pushing stomach contents out of the un-healed hole which in turn burns her skin..which hurts and makes her cry/scream which pushes out more.....It is so sad to watch and I feel so helpless. We got to the doctor and her onsie was soaked with stomach acid, she of course screamed bloody murder with the nurses/doctors because of her stranger anxiety caused by the nurses/doctors :o) which of course makes her leak. She also has granulation tissue around the site which makes it bleed. So surgery is scheduled for next Wednesday. I admit I cried today when I found out she needs another surgery. She needs it but its so hard to have her go thru this again. They will cut the hole in her tummy bigger, pull the actual stomach out through the hole and sew that up, push it back through the hole, dissect the skin on her belly and sew that back together. Wonderful huh? Oh well, it has to be done and then this will be over and we don't have to worry about it leaking anymore.